I 4 got, but someone told me that i should print out all my blogs. Well maybe i wont print them out... but im saving all of them on WORD. Yup, i had an extremely boring day. Woke up and switched from watching tv, eating, playing videogames, and going on the computer the whole day. And somewhere in there i took a shower...WHOOP-DEE-DOO! Damn..2morrow is Sunday...then monday is school again. ARGH...i hate school. But then again nobody really means it. "i like school cuz i get to see all my freinds". PSH watever. I hate school cuz i have to deal with seeing assholes 24/7. I dont lieterally hate school though..i mean without it i would have never met some of my bestfreinds. I just hate the thought of waking up early in the morning. And the fact that school is a type of "society" where people judge u and are always trying to get up in ur bussiness disgusts me. I mean i dont mind telling freinds wats up and all. But thats only when people are being SINCERE. People alot of the time just want to here shit becuz of their own curiosity. I guess theres nothing wrong with that (yah sure). But hopefully people actually CARE..i mean damn people...no need to be so freakin nozy. Yah but wat am i complaining about? I dont really have any drama goin down in my life. So thats a plus. BUT.... "light cant exist without darkness" heh. And happeniss cant exist without pain. Then again..who says im HAPPY. I guess the correct word 4 how i am rite now is "not stressed"? It sure as hell is uneasy though. 4 some reason i just dont feel...RITE. I cant put my finger on it..its like..im missing something? I dont know 4 sure. All i know is that im not 100% the flawlessly happy person i once was. I want to be that person again... no cares in the world, and always laughing at something. Well watever happens, HAPPENS. I'm juss trying to "play the hand ive been dealt" is all. But my hand sux..nothing but a couple of deuces...heh. NITE.
posted by Philip at 11:23 PM

 
::sigh:: everywhere i look i see people changing. People arent the way they used to be or people are learning more seeing more knowing more...so in that they have no choice but to CHANGE as people. I dont have anything agaisnt that i just saw last year to be so perfect. Back in 8th and 9th grade it was just..GREAT. I didnt have to really deal with people being FAKE, and i really didnt have to deal with ASSHOLES, RUDE people, MEAN people, and inconsiderate punks. Back then i only saw my GOOD freinds. The best part was that i saw my BEST freinds ALL THE TIME. I had each of them in many classes (i still didnt have any with samantha though!! wats up with that?!?!)...hell..in one class i had my 3 bestfreinds in one class..and we all sat 2gether!! haha that was the shit guys! heh..THEN...i even had my girl. I walked into highschool thinking that i'd be able to make more GOOD freinds like the ones i have now...and that me and my freinds would be just as tite. Instead i got the opposite. Ive found nothing but incosiderate and heartless people. Me and my freinds are still tite..its just some i wish i could see them more..hang with them more.. and watever. I'm not sitting here whining about "how i want a girlfreind" like everyone else is. I just want to have fun like i used too. Its hard to have fun though when u dont have the people that u want there...OR... the people around u are people u dislike. haha i know u dont read this dana...but u said it best on thanksgiving. About how this year is like an eye-opener. And that im not always gonna have my freinds all around me. but dang...i was just hoping..that even if i wouldnt be AS tite with some of the freinds i had, i thought i would at LEAST meet new people who are kinda hearted and watever. I mean its not that everyone new i met was an asshole..dont get me wrong. Its just that i thought i would meet some hella cool people that i would REALLY trust. but as always!! i gotta give shit time..weather they happen or not. Heh..im worried about many of my freinds..heh i have one in mind that im really worried about. But wat can i do 4 that person or anyone else? I agree with francis...i WONT GIVE UP. but i think im starting to give up on worrying. especially with that certain person. I realized that with people changing that they are still the same person i guess...but they arent THAT person that i cared so much 4. I still care 4 that person and everyone else... but when they change that much, then im worrying about someone that i THOUGHT was the same person..but isnt. Of course i still love that person regardless wat happens...but im changing as everyone else is.. its natural that we all wont feel the same as we did years ago. ::sigh:: memories...haha i got ALOT of good ones..haha...but i also have some BAD ones. So far this year ive made MAINLY bad ones. Hopefully in this next quarter and semester i will have some good memories to have. Welp thats a nice long BLOG about nothing but "changes" haha well have fun 4 all those who read this! (steph and samantha) haha. GOODNITE all.
posted by Philip at 12:17 AM